10/06/2017

31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes ~ Story

31 Days of Freww Writes - Story

Today is day 6 of the 31 days of five minute free writes and it is also the prompt for five minute Friday at the blog.

Story…Here is one of my stories of my life.

On this day, October 6, in the year 2000, I lost my first baby. I was 13 weeks pregnant and the day before we found out there was no heartbeat. We decided it was best for me to try to naturally miscarry before attempting a D&C. That was the hardest thing I had ever been through in my life at that point. I did end up miscarrying naturally in the early morning hours of October 6, 2000. After it happened, there were many “helpful” people who tried to comfort me. There was no comforting when they said, “It’s for the best",” “You can have another.” How do they know it was for the best? How did they know I would have another? The one thing I have found comfort in after all these years is knowing that my child is waiting for me in Heaven and one day I will get to see them. We refer to the child as Angel since we do not know if it was a boy or a girl. I still think about my child a lot still even though it has been 17 years. I don’t think that would be something I could ever forget. God has been and will be my comforter. I’ve learned through my experience how to help others through a loss of a child through miscarriage.

My favorite verse that I have had since I was a teenager was also a big help to me during my time of grief: Isaiah 41:10 ~ Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

3 comments:

  1. Oh, thank you for sharing this part of your story. I remember when we had our miscarriage and wondering how we talk about it... I was so thankful for friends who had experienced this loss, too. They brought food and champagne and just sat next to me without talking. I need to remember those actions when I feel at a loss. xo (Your FMF neighbor)

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  2. So sorry for your loss, but we have this loss in common. I lost my baby too only a few weeks into the pregnancy. For some reason, I believe it was a boy. I picture him often in heaven holding his grandpapa's hand walking the streets. My sister miscarried too the same year I did. My father has two of his grandchildren with him, waiting for us to join them. Thanks for sharing.

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  3. Oh, Rebecca! I am so sorry for your loss. How wonderful that as Christians we have the hope of the resurrection and heaven!

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